Nothg SpeCiaL...

发现
自己一直活在渺小的空间里
说实在的，感觉自己好像有点自闭
但又自闭不完... 哈哈哈~

最近都不知道自己在干什么
心情时好时差的
生活过于枯燥吗?
还是太过于单调了？
我也不知道...

感觉总有些事闷在心里
但却无法疏解出来

我是个不爱说真话的骗子
真话都藏在内心深处
怕被人发现

总爱美化我的每一言一语
希望自己是个完美的个体
但却不曾完美过

只有自己才知道
我是个怎样的人
人前人后的我
分别好大

好听的话说久会腻
听久了也腻
夜了
饿了
累了

I dun even know what's going on me...
But i feeling tired
And hunger for something
Wealth
Health
Love
or
Everything

What am i seeking for?
What are the most i wanted?
Asking myself
But
There are not exact answers
Cause
Even myself
Dun realize
What i deserve

Dreaming
Make me feel better
Cause in the dream, you can be anything u wan to be
You can have everything you wanted

Time is healing me
Happiness accompanied by pain and sorrow
But you will remember
All you have done
Put them as memories of beauty
Those beauty,
Will be fond memories in mind that at the depths of my heart
Forever and Ever

& maybe someday
I will go back to think of
Those which were once beauty in my life
Which or who
Ever make me feel
I'm exist
Life was once perfect

And it's really late now...
haha^^ almost 5am...
The End...

This year 15th feb, i thought it will be different from my pass, but seen like it was only my ridiculous thinking... 想太多了, but somethings which is real was my feeling, i dint realize it will become like this, but i just wanna do what ever i want to do... and so i did it, maybe it missing some of the parts according to the plan, but i was satisfied for that... i dint expect too much, cause i sense somethings had already change, and thus i still keep going on, why? i dun know, maybe i just wanna have a try... try to have something different, try to get something i deserve...

Well, it was nothings, just my own romance, 1st time i did it for someone, and i thought i will all going well, but there was so many unpredictable things happened.

That feeling is like i being poison, and i cant hold it for much more longer, wanna to tell someone that i have feel something on her... and so i prepare this, 7 for a special meaning, wanna know whats it mean? go check yourself la, haha^^...

重来没想过，我会走到这一步，应为每一次我都回因一些小小的问题而退缩，重来不做没有十全把握的事的我，这一次什么都不管了，虽然我还是漏掉了一点小小的细节，也是那最重要的一个部分，引哥教的杀手锏“hhhl”，竟然没用上，哈哈... 我还以为什么都对了，但原来是什么都错了...

回到了原点，有点不甘心... but i can do nothg, nothg at all, what i can do, is just stand aside and waiting, waiting, waiting... wait for the durian drop from the tree... feel dun wan to give up so easy, and yet i have no choice but to... wish everythg will going fine, maybe i just needed sometimes to heal myself... like that songs you like b4, it will all get better in time...



Better In Time - Leona Lewis